My first marriage only lasted a short time. I left to follow a beautiful American songstress back to the states where we lived in perfect hardship and struggled to become who we always wanted to be.

I wrote this some years after my first wife and the songstress had gone on to better people.

I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

Great inspirational guitar from Panu


I’ve got two feet in the circle and one thought on my mind
Why the hell was I so stupid to leave the girl behind
She was dangerous and irreverent but ultimately free
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me

She knew a road to get to paradise by way of Jack and Jim
She was touched by love and grace and had a beauty deep within
And I was so susceptible but the blames still down to me
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me

Friends they tried to tell me its a foolish thing to do
To change your life’s direction and put on marching boots
But I was reading Kerouac, William Burroughs and Ferlenghetti
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me

Now some people wait for perfection to help them on their way
That’s why they’re always waiting, waiting till judgement day
But me I’m full of bullshit that’s why I’m bound to leave
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me

Roads are meant for traveling dreams are bound to fade
Hopes are always brittle so many broken every day
But sitting in the future’s just not the way to be
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me

So remember where the silence lives in the space between our dreams
The hallowed halls of conscience stare back across the fields
And she gave to me her importance I gave her infidelity
And if God could save Jesus why the hell didn’t he save me